Day two, and I am feeling just dandy. Quite bad heartburn from all the fruit and running to loo every half hour is getting quite tiresome. Fed up of water already thou, its so dam boring but I am trying to drink lots honestly and I do know its good for me. I have never really been a water drinker, I mean not one of those people you see walking around with a bottle of water in their hand or handbag. For one its really expensive bottled water, two it gets really warm and I hate warm water and thirdly I never think about it. I guess the latter is the real reason I don't do it. But of course that is going to change now..(imagine big sulky face).
It dawned on me last night, when I was getting ready for bed, that in last nights blog I put my weight down in black and white for all to see. I would never have done that before, I hate it when I have to go the asthma clinic at the hospital every six months and the little volunteer lady, takes my weight down on her little chart, before ushering me into the breathing room. I never look to see what it is, and I swear she tuts, while she writes it down. I felt a little embarrassed really when I thought I had given my little secret away last night, but I guess subconsciously I wanted to do it, I have nothing to hide now..when at rock bottom the only way is up I guess. And anyway, I think I probably deserve a little embarrassment.. getting to 17 stone 11 at 34 is not good news really and its about time it changed.
Today I threw away all traces of chocolate out of the house, and it felt good. But it was really an easy thing to do, as I have never really been that into chocolate. OK I buy it at certain times of the month when I am ready to kill someone, but other then that..its not really my bag as my husband would say. Now crisps are a different story..oh I could sit and eat a share size bag of crisps all by myself and yes I often do.err that should be did. I become very protective over my bag of crisps and woe be tide anyone who tries to pinch one..they are in danger of having their fingers squashed in my hands. And no I haven't had the courage to throw away the bag of chili Doritos I have hidden. In fact I might actually save them as a sign of my willpower and determination to this diet. I still have 20 Berkeley menthol in the draw from when I gave up smoking 4 years ago, I get them out occasionally to congratulate myself on my huge achievement and to have a smell of the nicotine and menthol aroma, but then they go back for the next time and I forget about it again.
Tomorrow will be a big day for me, I am going out to dinner with some girlie friends, and I just adore the restaurant we are going to. The deserts are amazing and the martini's even better. I might treat myself to a martini but the dessert is a no no, and I must be good. Keep thinking of that dress Gina!!!!
Food today,
treacle and pecan granola.....246
Red pepper and goats cheese soup, 1 slice of bread.....240
plum, grapes, apple.... 176
Salmon and veggie bake and stir fry veggies with balsamic vinegar..... 350
Dietchef strawberry milkshake..... 225
Berry biscuits.....86
Total...... 1343
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