No I am not dead........

No im not dead, im still here and happy to say slightly thinner or should I say lighter. Even thou I haven't dropped a dress size yet. That little gem has slightly eluded me so far and is the cause of much disappointment.


But 27lbs weight loss so far in two months is not bad and I cant help feeling chuffed with myself. Its all going so well, I keep thinking it will all come to a sudden stop soon and my body will say,. No more loss, I like being fat, cuddly, curvy whatever you want to call it. But then on the other hand, I do think wow I can do this, I can be thinner, I can shop where I want, buy what I want and when and I don't have to wear what some plus size fashion designer, thinks bigger women look good in. This in my opinion is a brightly coloured tent with no shape and about as much finesse has a sumo wrestler!!



OK OK, now I am sounding slightly snobby. Girl get off your horse, you have only lost two stone from a very huge amount to lose and you are already thinking you have a right criticise plus size clothing, its been good enough for you for the last 15 years!!...But it’s not that at all, for years I have been one of these people shopping in these shops, not really thinking just resigning myself to the fact that this is where I shop and these are the types of clothes I buy. But just by even thinking of my weight, the way I live, my lifestyle, the type of clothes I buy, it’s opened my eyes up to it all really. And just picking up a fashion mag or looking at the latest catwalk creations has really opened my eyes and is spurring me on. For the past 15 years I have been buying clothes on autopilot. First it was Etams, and then they closed down. Then it was new look Inspire, which at the time was completely amazing. They opened a huge store in Weymouth (New Look's head office is in Weymouth) and on the top floor they had the new Inspire range, it was well cool. The clothes were so hip and fashionable it was great. but slowly over the years is has been declining and now the only place I can get Inspire stuff is in Walsall and even that is getting smaller and smaller. And of course that only leaves Evans, the fat person's ultimate store. Don’t get me wrong there are some nice clothes in there, but they are over priced and most of the staff are rude. Apart from the Poole store, whose staff are always friendly and the store in Oh God I forgot the name of it now err, well it’s in Cornwall. I will think of it and let you all know. Now those two girls were great and so helpful and friendly.



A month ago, I brought a Jasper Conran dress from Debenhams. Size 18, it is beautiful. Its called salt and pepper, basically it’s grey with speckles of white and black running though it. But the difference with this dress compared to all my others is this one is fitted, it has shape. It is meant to fall over and accentuate places where as my other dresses are made to hide them.

My goal is to get into that dress for Christmas day. And by Jove I am going to do it.